joop wrote:Why do you have to feel shy exercising. If you have that thought then you'll never get the engine starting.
time, willpower and determination
I think you should give it a try jogging or swimming alone or with friends. Rather than trying out slimming centres so soon.

Uhm i guess shy would probably be the correct word to describe it.
I use to be a sports enthusiast, from soccer to badminton until 14. Then an accident put me in a wheel chair for 3 months. After i arrived in indonesia, a martial arts teacher taught me how to walk again and glad i heed his advice and teachings. So when i landed in sweden, i started taking up badminton again and was happy to know that my foot is starting to obey me again. At that time, there was a lot of badminton fan so it was easy to find a partner for practise. Yes, i love badminton eventhough i am not very good at it.
My weight was stable until i gave birth to 2nd child and balooned after my 4th.
Problem was my hubby doesn't want me to be slim. Everytime i ask him if i can go to a fitness centre or the likes, he would say "u want to find someone else right. I know u, once u r slim then u can be confident again and i can't say anything or u'll walk out on me". At other times, he would say i am old already so why bother or priority are the kids so stop thinking about urself coz i won't ever leave u.
So for 4 years of being cooped up and never given the chance nor money to do anything. I guess i gave up. I know this sounds lame but i got tired and just eat, sleep, clean the house and take care of kids. Also, i wasn't allowed to have any friends so the loneliness kind of ate me up inside.
So now that he is out there, i start to have this wish to get up and do sth. but then i look in the mirror and say "ugh, i hate myself & just wanna hide under the blanket".
I 'want' to exercise but don't want to do it alone and too embarressed to ask anyone since i just came out of my shell.....