Equalizer wrote:Yeah juz tired of living 51yo. single. no debts. no kin, house fully paid. a dull job.....
I've been there, tell me about it, you need help, I'm afraid, otherwise you will fall deeper down. If you want a chat, you can PM me.
This is all in your mind, believe me I know, I have said to many people, I believe these feelings are related to the change of life, midlife crisis, after all, why should women only suffer, with their menstrual cycle.
Take a deep breath, and say you are going to get out of this negative roller coaster. Try some meditation classes, the gym, or even study,
I'm 56 yr old, and have also done much in my life, that I couldn't find the reasons for living, I have since reinvent my life totally, and the problem is very clear.
The mind = Good & Evil = Positive thoughts & Negative thoughts = Life & Death
Those that ended their life, were consumed with the negative thoughts, that can take your mind on a roller coaster ride of self destruction. I know because I have been there, especially with alcohol, drowning my sorrows, my immune system failing, my liver failing, it wasn't until, I was given 14 days to live, that I suddenly woke up! and that was more than 10 years ago.
Once you can realise this fact, that the devil wants you in his world, you can fight against it.
You are to young and their is lots to do in this world, that can make you happy, and can give you something to live for.
Concentrate on the world and not the people in it! Look at the beauty of the animals, the birds and the bees, see the things you have never seen before.
You say you have no kids! Well why don't you adopt one poor soul, from a distance and watch the beauty of you giving life to someone, that as never had the opportunities, you have had.
Do you actually realise what help, you could give, and take an interest, in a poor young child, with know future, to help them get a foot on the ladder of life.
The millions of people that travel and work abroad, taking fat incomes, while others struggle is a sickening sight, and it doesn't take much to contribute to the good of others.
Take a walk to Chijmes and read the plaque on the wall, were young mothers dumped their children at the doors of the convent, feel what it's like, get involved with your soul, and help give life, rather than sacrifice yourself to the devil inside you.
The self pitty is the sign of a whimpering soul, trapped by negative forces, you need to slow your thoughts down, and turn this negativity into something useful
Cheer up, you are certainly not alone.